Friday, May 30, 2008



"CAMPBELL, Nicole Elaine,
January 3rd 1964 to April 17th 2008.

Dearly loved daughter of Pat and the late Peter Campbell, and always a proud eldest sister of Maryse ( Jim), Chantal (Drew) and Simon. Nicole delighted in her nephew Max and her nieces Kate, and new baby Sarah.

For many years Nicole managed the pain, anxiety and ravages of anorexia. She was supported at every step by her family, her family doctor Todd Walters, many members of Metropolitan United Church, and her faithful caregivers, especially Grace and Sanya.

She leaves us with comforting memories of her courage, her wicked sense of humour, her thoughtful generosity, and her determination to do things her own way right to the end. These gifts we will hold so that she will remain with us.

To celebrate her life, a concert with her favourite Metropolitan Silver Band, will be held on Sunday May 4th at 7 p.m. at Metropolitan United Church 56 Queen St. (at Church), Toronto, M5C 2Z3. Dessert and coffee will be served in the Metropolitan Centre at 7:45, after the concert.

If so desired, memorial donations may be made to Sheena’s Place 87 Spadina Rd, Toronto, M5R 2T1 at , or
The Metropolitan Silver Band, c/o Metropolitan United Church as above."

The new faces of anorexia and bulimia
Starve, binge, purge cycle on rise among women over 40

Sharon Kirkey
Canwest News Service

"Nicole Elaine Campbell was 44 years old when her heart finally stopped.

Her kidneys had given out long before; her bones were so weak she fractured both hips, her arms, collarbone, spine and pelvis.

"For many years Nicole managed the pain, anxiety and ravages of anorexia," read the obituary published after her April 17 death, and like many women with severely disordered eating, she was very good at it.

"She was so self-disciplined," her mother Patricia says.

Experts across Canada are seeing an increase in women over 40 seeking help for eating disorders -- women so rigid and obsessed about what they eat they throw out entire categories of food ("no meat, no carbs, no dairy, no sugar"). Women who hoard boxes of NutraSweet and eat nothing but dry salad for dinner. Women who starve themselves by day and rush through drive-thru windows by night, binging and purging on fast food. Women who spend all day thinking about not eating.

Some have struggled with weight and food for years. Many are relapsing after being in recovery for decades from an eating disorder they had in their teens; some never got the treatment they needed when they were younger. Others are developing eating obsessions and distorted body image issues for the first time in their lives.

Sheena's Place, a Toronto eating disorders centre, has started a support group for women at mid-life to meet demand.

"We've got women as young as 35 and women in their 60s," says program director Anne Elliott.

At Hopewell centre in Ottawa, the increase is in binge eating among women over 30.

"They're not doing so much compensating in terms of purging or over-exercising but they're binging and feeling really out of control with it, really guilty about it," says program co-ordinator Misty Pratt.

It begins slowly, like alcoholism. "Eating disorders are not just something you 'wake up' with one morning," Elliott says.

It can start with a diet and, when the feedback is positive ("You look so good!"), can lead to a slippery slide into serious restriction and the beginning of obsessive behaviour -- women weighing themselves constantly, rearranging food on a plate, refusing to eat with the family, getting up in the middle of the meal to vomit or an intense fear of weight gain and fat.

A woman can hide bulimia or anorexia to a certain point. "Because the weight loss can develop slowly over time, people get used to seeing someone really thin and don't think this person might have an eating disorder," says Elliott.

But there can be telltale signs too: thinning hair, yellowish, dry skin, sore throat and swollen glands. Elliott can sometimes tell just by the sound of a woman's voice whether she has an eating disorder. "I can tell by talking to somebody if they have been purging through their throat a lot."

For some, it's a coping strategy, a desperate grasp for control at a time of transition or crisis -- divorce, the death of a spouse, children leaving home, caring for an aging parent. Women revert to old behaviours that became imprinted in their brain.

People do all kinds of things for comfort and achieving a particular number on the scale can be seductive, says Merryl Bear, of the National Eating Disorder Information Centre.

"It allows them to feel a sense of accomplishment in a world that might feel very chaotic and out of control."

Dr. Lara Ostolosky says more older women are seeking help partly because eating disorders don't hold the same stigma they once did.

The thinking used to be there was no biological component to them, "so that if a person is having eating disordered behaviours like binging and vomiting and laxative (abuse) and starving themselves, it was all an attention-seeking behaviour. The research now says that's entirely not the case.

"There is this large biological component to this. In other words, it's a very bona fide psychiatric illness," says Ostolosky, an eating disorders psychiatrist at the University of Alberta Hospital in Edmonton.

Madonna, Vanity Fair cover, May 2008

But there can be a huge cultural component as well. The pressure on women is to be perfectly thin and the message beaming out from the bone-thin Desperate Housewives and body suit-clad Madonna on the cover of Vanity Fair is clear: being thin and youthful-looking is not only attainable, it's desirable.

"For some reason this culture is still uncomfortable with women wearing our stories on our faces and our bodies," says Kate Lum, 43, a children's author and health outreach and intake co-ordinator at Sheena's Place, who struggled with an eating disorder in her twenties.

But a woman's metabolism slows as she ages and the natural tendency is to put on weight. The more women try to defy that biological set-point, the more the body rebels.

"Throw in things like menopause and it's even more difficult metabolically. The body doesn't want to lose weight," says Ostolosky, of Edmonton.

"So the more they try to restrict, the hungrier they get, the more they binge, the more they vomit and on the cycle goes."

The behaviour becomes entrenched and and starts to exact a toll. Women begin to lose bone, their blood pressure drops and fine hair, like the downy hair of a newborn, can grow over the body as it tries to compensate for constantly being so cold.

"They're unable to work because they're binge eating and throwing up so much, or they've restricted eating to the point they can't think clearly and employers are starting to notice, or the relationship is falling apart because the husband discovers the binging and purging," Ostolosky says.

Or they seek help because of their daughters. "They're worried about their daughters, about what their own eating habits are saying. 'Why doesn't Mom eat the same food we do? Why doesn't Mom ever have dinner with us?'"

One 45-year-old woman would starve herself all day and then binge on fast food at night.

"Starting at 6 p.m. she'd go through Burger King and get her meal and eat it and then throw up. Then she'd go through McDonald's and then Wendy's and Taco Bell. Three or four in one night," says Dr. Dena Cabrera, a staff psychologist at Remuda Programs for Eating Disorders in Arizona, the largest in-patient treatment centre in the U.S. for girls and women with eating disorders.

Another woman restricted her intake to 400 to 500 calories a day: one egg white in the morning, a slice of turkey with a few carrots or celery for lunch and salad without dressing for dinner.

"If she was feeling like she needed a little pick-me-up she'd maybe throw a couple of slices of chicken on it," Cabrera says. "But usually they're vegetarians."

Nicole Campbell's mother Pat says there are as many reasons as there are stars in the sky why someone develops an eating disorder. "If we knew we would have done something about it."

Nicole was a gifted athlete and student, a musical and much-loved eldest of four children and, "looking on the surface, there was no identifiable trauma."

If Pat can trace it to anything, she thinks the problem may have started the year Nicole spent in Switzerland doing Grade 13, where she was fed a particularly rich diet and gained some weight. At the University of Western Ontario she became very picky and then, gradually, she didn't cook or eat much at all.

Throughout her 30s and early 40s, Nicole's weight hovered between 80 and 90 pounds.

"Her eating habit changed to very deprived, unhealthy things," Pat says. Nothing but soda crackers with no salt, or a certain brand of soup. "When we were together on family occasions she would eat a bit of what we had. It was this obsession. If she made a mistake and ate a proper dinner she would quickly remove herself and give it back."

Her kidneys stopped working properly, and even seemed to shrink. Five years ago, when they shut down completely, Nicole went on daily dialysis.

"The next way we noticed it, other than her incredibly low body weight, was that she became severely osteoporotic. She had numerous fractures," Pat says. "For a time she was having mini seizures and falling."

Nicole died last month of a septic lung infection. "Her body just wore out," Pat says.

The longer women live with disordered eating and the more medically compromised they become, the harder the recovery. Having anorexia is the single most important risk factor for suicide, Cabrera says. But many doctors don't look for it. The focus today is on obesity, she says, and women aren't opening up and saying, "I'm kind of restricting, or I'm binge eating or I'm having problems with food. They don't talk about it."

But when they do seek help, many women enter treatment highly motivated.

"They're tired of it. They're old enough so they have more life experience and more motivation to get better. They've seen how it's destroyed their lives and the toll its taken on their families," Ostolosky says.

"The message is, there is hope and support for people with eating disorders," says Elliott, of Sheena's Place.

"One of the first things is to break the isolation and seek medical help and find some kind of support group and counselling where you can deal with some of the underlying issues in your life, so that you can find new coping strategies that don't put your health in any kind of jeopardy."

If you, or someone you know, is struggling with an eating disorder or is preoccupied with weight and dieting, contact the National Eating Disorder Information Centre in Canada at, or call toll-free 1-866-633-4220. The non-profit organization has a national directory of service providers.


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Thursday, May 29, 2008


The ever-elusive and very "shy" Heidi Diaz/Kimmer

Heidi, I can't imagine how socially debilitating it must be for you because of your extreme shyness. It must be hellish.

So imagine my excitement when I came across this recent study! I thought of you immediately and, being the goodhearted soul that I am, wanted to pass it on to you so you could order a truckload of oxytocin. Worth a try, no?

Anti-Shyness Spray

"Scientists have developed a treatment they say could be a cure for shyness," Roger Highfield writes in the Daily Telegraph.

"They have found that by inhaling a chemical (oxytocin) naturally produced in the brain, known as the "cuddle chemical" or "love hormone," people can be made to trust strangers. It could now be developed to treat social disorders.

Tests are under way to see if the hormones, contained in a nasal spray, could overcome feelings of awkwardness and anxiety felt by many in social situations such as parties."

Details of the Swiss study are published in the journal, Neuron.

So, Heidi, good luck with the oxytocin. Don't forget to let me know how it's working for ya, okay?


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Tuesday, May 27, 2008


Charlotte Buckley

How slimming for my wedding turned me into a bride-orexic

By Liz Hull

Daily Mail Online
26th May 2008

[NOTE: 1 stone = 14 pounds]

"Like any bride-to-be Charlotte Buckley was determined to look her best on her wedding day.

But her determination to lose weight to fit into a size 10 bridal gown turned into an anorexic obsession that almost killed her.

After losing four stones in just over a year her parents eventually begged her to seek help and she had to spend six months recovering in hospital.

Charlotte at 79 pounds

Charlotte Buckley's determination to get into her size ten wedding dress left her painfully thin with an eating disorder.

The 22-year-old says the ordeal contributed to the failure of her marriage and the couple are now filing for divorce.

Miss Buckley is one of a growing number of girls who develop what has been named "brideorexia" - an obsessive desire to lose weight for their wedding day.

Yesterday the sales representative said: "Like so many women I wanted to slim down for my big day.

"I knew I was pushing myself, but as each pound slid off it became like a drug, with compliments on my wedding day being the final reward.

"My wedding day really was the happiest day of my life but not for reasons you'd expect.

"The fact that I was marrying the man of my dreams paled in comparison to the joy I felt as a tiny size eight."

Miss Buckley, from Lancaster, met her fiance Dan Broadley, 26, on a night out in February 2004, and was delighted when he proposed the next April.

But things began to go wrong in March 2006, four months before the wedding when Miss Buckley, then a healthy 9st 7lb, bought a bridal gown two sizes too small to encourage herself to diet for the big day.

Back on track: Charlotte sought help and is now happy with her shape

"I devised my own panic diet that involved eating three tablespoons of muesli for breakfast, two crispbreads and an apple for lunch and a chocolate bar for dinner," she said.

"Losing weight became an obsession as I limited myself to 500 calories a day."

By her wedding day her hip bones and rib cage jutted out and her dress was now too big and had to be pinned into place.

But her strict diet did not stop for her honeymoon in the Maldives or subsequent married life, and neither did the worrying weight loss.

"I became even more focused on shrinking, terrified I'd get fat without a goal to focus on," she said.

She visited pro-anorexia websites, where women encourage each other to starve, exchange diet tips, and post pictures of skinny celebrities.

Only in March last year, when she weighed just 5st 9lb, did her parents Sally, 48, and Les, 54, finally persuade her to seek help.

But after six months recovering in the eating disorder unit at Cheadle Royal Hospital, Stockport, her marriage was over.

Miss Buckley said: "I now weigh 8st and am truly happy with the way I look."

Emma Healey, director of operations at eating disorder charity beat, said "brideorexia" was a worrying trend among young women.

"Getting married is one of the most stressful events in a woman's life and it is possible that some respond to that pressure by taking control of their life through their eating," she said.

"We all know about the pressures on young women to look beautiful and some will push themselves to extremes to wear that wedding dress and look their best."

Many thanks to wackytobeme for sending me the link to this story.


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Tuesday, May 20, 2008


The Ultimate Drama Queen

Gloria Swanson as Norma Desmond in Sunset Boulevard (1950)

I'd better get this post up before the reappearance of the two Drama Queens on the Fascination thread at Low Carb Friends.

First of all, we have AmyB, who seems hell bent on posting every personal thought she's ever had and the minutiae of her life second by second, revealing everything except her Aunt Gertrude's dog's name on the thread. AmyB, listen, honey. Send PMs. And you've got a blog. Post there. Please.

And next we have TwiddleDee who comes crashing and burning from Kimkins into the Fascination thread, alienating most within the first 30 seconds with her not-so-passive-aggressive posts. Within 48 hours, she has an epiphany and suddenly renounces Heidi Diaz/Kimmer. Then, after being asked a few very valid questions, which she refused to deem worthy of a response, she stomps off the thread in a huff, leaving a terse message that she'd be better off dead. Nice work, Dee/DEEDLYNN/whatever.

You know, many Kimkins members have joined LCF and posted in the Fascination thread but none that I can remember have alienated as many people as quickly as Dee.

Dee's behaviour has done nothing to endear her to even her former supporters on FWK and has left many questioning not only her motives but her denunciation of Kimmer. Is it all an act? Is she a Kimmer plant? Who knows. And who really cares at this point. Most of us are Dee'd out.

Carly and Malucas, both having been banned from Kimkins, have posted on LCF and have been welcomed. Perhaps they both could give some tips to Dee on how to win friends and influence people...not that I'm in any way encouraging them to do so.

And a personal note to Malucas:

Malucas, I'm truly sorry that my post on shiphips caused your banning at Kimkins. Heidi, if you're reading this, shiphips was dead wrong. Malucas was not a mole. Not that you really care, Heidi...I just wanted to set the record straight. Malucas, I'm relieved you got out of the Kimpound, and wish you all the best.

And for those who missed it, the talented and brilliant NancyElle posted the following on the FWK thread. For those who fear they may be suffering from the "all about me" complex, please ensure you read this:

"Histrionic Personality Disorder

What is histrionic personality disorder?

Histrionic personality disorder is one of a group of conditions called dramatic personality disorders.

People with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions and distorted self-images.

For people with histrionic personality disorder, their self-esteem depends on the approval of others and does not arise from a true feeling of self-worth.

They have an overwhelming desire to be noticed, and often behave dramatically or inappropriately to get attention. The word histrionic means "dramatic or theatrical."

This disorder is more common in women than in men and usually is evident by early adulthood.

What are the symptoms of histrionic personality disorder?

In many cases, people with histrionic personality disorder have good social skills; however, they tend to use these skills to manipulate others so that they can be the center of attention.

A person with this disorder might also:

Be uncomfortable unless he or she is the center of attention

Dress provocatively and/or exhibit inappropriately seductive or flirtatious behavior

Shift emotions rapidly

Act very dramatically—as though performing before an audience—with exaggerated emotions and expressions, yet appears to lack sincerity

Be overly concerned with physical appearance

Constantly seek reassurance or approval

Be gullible and easily influenced by others

Be excessively sensitive to criticism or disapproval

Have a low tolerance for frustration and be easily bored by routine, often beginning projects without finishing them or skipping from one event to another

Not thinking before acting

Make rash decisions

Be self-centered and rarely show concern for others

Have difficulty maintaining relationships, often seeming fake or shallow in their dealings with others

Threaten or attempt suicide to get attention

What causes histrionic personality disorder?

The exact cause of histrionic personality disorder is not known, but many mental health professionals believe that both learned and inherited factors play a role in its development.

For example, the tendency for histrionic personality disorder to run in families suggests that a genetic susceptibility for the disorder might be inherited. However, the child of a parent with this disorder might simply be repeating learned behavior.

Other environmental factors that might be involved include a lack of criticism or punishment as a child, positive reinforcement that is given only when a child completes certain approved behaviors, and unpredictable attention given to a child by his or her parent(s), all leading to confusion about what types of behavior earn parental approval.

How is histrionic personality disorder diagnosed?

If symptoms are present, the doctor will begin an evaluation by performing a complete medical history and physical examination. Although there are no laboratory tests to specifically diagnose personality disorders, the doctor might use various diagnostic tests to rule out physical illness as the cause of the symptoms.

If the doctor finds no physical reason for the symptoms, he or she might refer the person to a psychiatrist or psychologist, health care professionals who are specially trained to diagnose and treat mental illnesses. Psychiatrists and psychologists use specially designed interview and assessment tools to evaluate a person for a personality disorder.

How is histrionic personality disorder treated?

In general, people with histrionic personality disorder do not believe they need therapy.

They also tend to exaggerate their feelings and to dislike routine, which makes following a treatment plan difficult.

However, they might seek help if depression—possibly associated with a loss or a failed relationship—or another problem caused by their thinking and behavior causes them distress.

Psychotherapy (a type of counseling) is generally the treatment of choice for histrionic personality disorder. The goal of treatment is to help the individual uncover the motivations and fears associated with his or her thoughts and behavior, and to help the person learn to relate to others in a more positive way.

Medication might be used to treat the distressing symptoms—such as depression and anxiety—that might co-occur with this disorder.

What are the complications of histrionic personality disorder?

Histrionic personality disorder can affect a person’s social or romantic relationships and how a person reacts to losses or failures. People with this disorder are also at higher risk than the general population to suffer from depression.

What is the outlook for people with histrionic personality disorder?

Many people with this disorder are able to function well socially and at work. Those with severe cases, however, might experience significant problems in their daily lives.

Can histrionic personality disorder be prevented?

Although prevention of the disorder might not be possible, treatment can allow a person who is prone to this disorder to learn more productive ways of dealing with situations.

©Copyright 1995-2007 The Cleveland Clinic Foundation. All rights reserved"

And be sure to check out the fabulous Nancy Ellyn's blog here:

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Monday, May 19, 2008


Benefits Supervisor Sleeping
~Lucian Freud

This past week, Lucian Freud's 1995 nude portrait of Sue Tilley, a former Benefits Supervisor, made history. It was revealed yesterday that Roman Abramovich, a Russian billionaire and owner of the Chelsea Football Club in the UK, was reportedly the mystery collector who snapped up Freud's painting last week.

Freud's 1995 portrait, Benefits Supervisor Sleeping, was auctioned by Christie's in New York City for more than $34 million, setting a world record and making it the world's most expensive painting by a living artist. The painting has been lauded as one of the most important of our age.

Lucian Freud

British painter, Lucian Michael Freud was born on December 8, 1922, and is the grandson of Sigmund Freud.

"Freud was born in Berlin in December 1922, and came to England with his family in 1933. He studied briefly at the Central School of Art in London and, to more effect, at Cedric Morris's East Anglian School of Painting and Drawing in Dedham. Following this, he served as a merchant seaman in an Atlantic convoy in 1941. His first solo exhibition, in 1944 at the Lefevre Gallery, featured the now celebrated The Painter's Room 1944. In the summer of 1946, he went to Paris before going on to Greece for several months. Since then he has lived and worked in London."

Freud met his muse, Sue Tilley, in a nightclub 20 years ago and spent nine months painting her.

Sue Tilley

Sue Tilley, who was indeed a benefits supervisor at the time of the painting, has since been promoted to manager of a Jobcentre Plus in central London.

Tilley is thrilled with the attention Freud's painting of her has attracted.

“My life’s changed overnight,” she says. “I’m beside myself, but then lovely things are always happening to me. Still, I’m not surprised - in a way, I always thought this might happen. I love that painting.”

For Benefits Supervisor Sleeping, Freud bought the sofa for her to rest on. “It was lovely and comfy, and I just lay on it, really, for nine months.” she continues “Sometimes he’d take me out for lunch, which I liked, and we’d work again in the afternoon. It was quite exhausting, just lying there. I know it sounds silly, but it was.“

To my eyes, the painting is absolutely beautiful and I am in awe not only of Freud's remarkable skill but also of Tilley's lack of compunction in baring her body to Freud, warts and all. Freud's rendering of Tilley is a masterpiece.

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Saturday, May 17, 2008



Where can you participate in the Fascination with Kimmer threads, without being censored, having your posts deleted, your knuckles rapped, or the final insult, being banned...

...where freedom of expression is not only encouraged but embraced...

... and where people are now flocking?


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This morning on the Fascination thread on Low Carb Friends, Dee posted a Private Message that Heidi Diaz/Kimmer sent to her. In the PM was this comment by Heidi:

"...Medusa is always emailing KK members (especially the 100 pound losers)."

Just to set the record straight, that is an outright lie. The only current members of Kimkins I have ever e-mailed are Dee and Patti, and that was this past week to ask for their assistance regarding the 17-year-old Kimkins.con member who is suffering from an eating disorder.

The lying liar who lies

Here is the link to Dee's post on LCF re Heidi's PM to her:

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Friday, May 16, 2008




UPDATE (May 16/08):
For those who believed that the 17-year-old girl is a Kimkins sock puppet, I received written evidence today which proves, without a shadow of a doubt, that she is, in fact, real and NOT a sock puppet.
Yesterday (May 14/08), I received information from a member of Kimkins about a 17-year-old girl who, in her first post, admitted she had an eating disorder.

In an effort to reach out to this young girl, I attempted to enlist the assistance of Kimkins members, Dee/DEEDLYNN/DEEDLYNN22, who has recently been posting on Low Carb Friends, and Patti, one of the current KK cover girls, to intervene.

Below is a copy of my e-mail to Patti:

"Medusa to patti
show details May 14 (1 day ago)

Patti, I have grave concerns regarding a member of KK and would like to pass on some info to you in the hopes that you may be willing to intervene.

Not having Dee/DEEDLYNN/DEEDLYNN22's e-mail address, I left a comment on her blog and asked her to contact me. Here is the screen shot of my comment to her:

Dee quickly replied to my post with this:

"DeAnna XXX to me
show details May 14 (1 day ago)

Here is my email address. I'd be happy to help you if I can.


I then forwarded the following e-mail to Dee:

"...There is a new member of Kimkins, XXX, who has a serious eating disorder. A
member of Kimkins copied XXX's post and sent it to me. Her KK username is XXX.
The text of her post is at the bottom of this e-mail.

I've been advised that no one at KK has responded to her posts, and I was wondering if you could perhaps contact her and suggest that she contact one of the following eating-disorder helplines:

Bulimia/Anorexia Self Help Hotline: 800-
Eating Disorders Hotline: 800- 448-4663
Anorexia Nervosa and
Associate Disorders 847-831-3438
Youth Crisis Line: 800- HIT-HOME
Thursday's Child National Call Center for at Risk Youth: 800-USA-KIDS
Boys and girls Town National Hotline: 800- 448-3000
Kids Help Phone
(Canada): 800-668-6868
The Eating Distress Helpline (Ireland):011-44-2600366
Referrals to Eating Disorder specialists (US and Canada) 800-736-3739
The National Mental Health Association Information Center: 800-969-NMHA

The phone numbers above are from the blog Weighing the Facts, which is a wonderful resource blog for those who are suffering from bulimia, anorexia, and other eating disorders.

My blog, as well, has information on eating disorders (

I'm hoping that, with encouragement, she will seek help.

Many thanks, Dee. I really appreciate any assistance you're able to give this girl. She is in serious trouble.

All the best,

XXX's post on Kimkins:

"Alrighty then, I'm a mess-up.

I suppose it depends on how you look at it. I'm 17 years old, I am a Jr. at
Pepperdine University and I go there on a scholarship, I'm pre-medicine, I
love to read and write... and I have this tricky little thing called an eating disorder.

It's bothered me for a long, long time. I have screamed at God, I have screamed at my parents, I have screamed at myself. I have cut myself. I have contemplated suicide.

One day, I asked myself why it is better to commit suicide than to change my life. Even if changing my life was the most difficult thing imaginable, I do believe that I would be happier once I'd done it - so clearly, taking a difficult step towards happiness is far wiser than taking a selfish step towards oblivion. And so, here I am. For the millionth time, in one way or another.

But I love to write, so I thought - maybe a blog ill help. Where yes, I talk about how much I weigh today and how the elliptical felt on my gracilis muscle, but also about Ayn Rand's purpose behind discussing selfishness in The Fountainhead, and where we can discuss the implications behind bio-engineering, and where we can consider the incredible theories behind Newtonian physics and Nietzschean philosophy.

So that's what I'm asking - because, for my entire life, I have been overwhelmed by the realization that very few people that I'm friends with are really interested in
all the things I listed above. I'll be honest - I don't care about Jamie Lynn Spears. I don't. I don't care about 24 or CSI, but I deeply care about the starving people of North Korea and the importance of love in marriage.

So that's my first topic: love. My last boyfriend was completely in love with me. I don't say this in a vain way, but I know it was true. I broke up with him because I was not in love with him - and it broke his heart. And so now I have come to the realization that I don't want to even consider dating someone until I feel the possibility that he could become someone I could never live without. For me, this seems so unlikely that I don't think I'll ever get married - and here is why. When you read a great piece of literature, you fall in love with a multi-faceted thing which is greater than you are. Words on a page, in my opinion, truly can overcome reality. And so it is that I love this - this depth, this power, this beauty which not even the author could fully grasp - so much that I don't believe it is possible to love something which is tangible quite as much. The tangible cannot be as beautiful. The thing I love about literature is it wields a power greater than any one human being.

The only way I can see of falling in love with someone is if he joined me in that same love. But I have not met anyone who is like that yet. That is partly why I'm here - to assure myself that such people do exist. But here is my question - I am young and people here have more life experience: have you honestly met someone that you love so much that you cannot imagine life without them? Because that is what I want. I love my dad so much that I cannot begin to consider life without him - but I was born loving him that much. Have you actually MET someone who took this place of importance in your life?

P.S. I weigh 184 pounds. I'm 5'8''. I work out every day. haha I forgot that's why I'm here.

Okay, so....
I've definitely got some issues. I'm 17 years old and I'm a Jr. at Pepperdine University. When I was 12 I had anorexia and since then I have developed a pretty clean case of Binge Eating Disorder. (it does exist... it's not just made up). So, I\'m here to change that and change myself. I'll be honest - there is a boy I like and I think he could like me too. But we're off school for the summer and I want to become a different person.

However, I want this blog to be about more than that - I love philosophy, literature, science - really anything that makes you think. My favorite books would be The Catcher in the Rye, Atlas Shrugged or The Plague. My favorite movies - Scanner Darkly or Shawshank Re "

I then received this response from Patti:

"Patti Larsen to me May 14 (1 day ago)

Screw off. I'm a healthy woman making the right choices for myself who happens to eat three times a day, thank you very much. You should be ashamed.Thoughts are things. Make every thought count."

I immediately followed with this response to Patti:

"Medusa to Patti
show details 10:01 AM (33 minutes ago)
Patti, I was contacted by a member of Kimkins who is asking for help in assisting a very young girl who has admitted in her posts on Kimkins to having a very serious eating disorder.
My only purpose in writing you was to ask if you might reply to this young girl's post on Kimkins and direct her to some eating disorder helplines."

Then 30 minutes later, this arrived from Patti:

Patti Larsen to me
show details 10:31 AM (4 minutes ago)

I am not interested in your games. Not sure how you got my personal email, nor do I care, except that you must have a fake profile on Kimkins, which makes you dispicable. Just so you know, I've reported you to the Kimkins organizers. People like you blame the world for your problems when the only one who can really make a change is you.
I hope this ficticious girl finds her own path.
DO NOT email me again or I will report you as a spammer.
Thoughts are things. Make every thought count."

How sad.

Late yesterday, the 17-year-old girl posted this on Kimkins:

"hey! I want to join this group.. I am kind of disappointed because so far, no one has responded to any of my posts on this site.
I currently weight 182.5 pounds... I want to be about 135-140.
I have had 3 cheat free days so far."

Having not heard back from Dee/DEEDLYNN/DEEDLYNN22, I sent her another e-mail this morning:

"Medusa to DeAnna show details 8:28 AM (7 hours ago)

Good morning, Dee :^) Were you able to get in touch with XXX ? "

As of 3:37 today, I have heard nothing back from Dee/DEEDLYNN/DEEDLYNN22. I guess she is too busy reading Dr. Atkins New Diet Revolution, posting on LCF, and PMing Heidi.

Shame on you Heidi, Dee, and Patti. Your lack of concern for this young girl is despicable.

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Thursday, May 15, 2008


Check out this YouTube video to see Simon in the bloom of youth on Britain's Sale of the Century ;^)


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Wednesday, May 14, 2008


The following are all replies that Detroit women have written on Child Support Agency Forms in the section for listing 'father's details' or putting it another way... Who's yo' Daddy? These are genuine excerpts from the forms.

1. Regarding the identity of the father of my twins, Makeeshia was fathered by Maclearndon McKinley. I am unsure as to the identity of the father of Marlinda, but I believe that she was conceived on the same night.

2. I am unsure, as to the identity of the father of my child as I was being sick out of a window when taken unexpectedly from behind. I can provide you with a list of names of men that I think were at the party if this helps.

3. I do not know the name of the father of my little girl. She was conceived at a party at 3600 East Grand Boulevard where I had sex with a man I met that night. I do remember that the sex was so good that I fainted. If you do manage to track down the father, can you please send me his phone number? Thanks.

4. I don't know the identity of the father of my daughter. He drives a BMW that now has a hole made by my stiletto in one of the door panels. Perhaps you can contact BMW service stations in this area and see if he's had it replaced.

5. I have never had sex with a man. I am still a Virginian. I am awaiting a letter from the Pope confirming that my son's conception was ejaculate and that he is the Saver risen again.

6. I cannot tell you the name of Alleshia dad as he informs me that to do so would blow his cover and that would have cataclysmic implications for the economy. I am torn between doing right by you and right by the country. Please advise.

7. I do not know who the father of my child was as they all look the same to me.

8. Tyrone Hairston is the father of child A. If you do catch up with him, can you ask him what he did with my AC/DC CDs? Child B who was also borned at the same time... Well, I don't have clue.

9. From the dates it seems that my daughter was conceived at Disney World; maybe it really is the Magic Kingdom.

10. So much about that night is a blur. The only thing that I remember for sure is Delia Smith did a program about eggs earlier in the evening. If I had stayed in and watched more TV rather than going to the party at 8956 Miller Ave, mine might have remained unfertilized.

11. I am unsure as to the identity of the father of my baby, after all, like when you eat a can of beans you can't be sure which one made you fart.

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Tuesday, May 13, 2008


In what may have been a splash of misogyny and a spike in testosterone, Tom, owner of Netrition and Big Kahuna of Low Carb Friends (LCF), brings down the paddle on the posters on the Fascination with Kimmer thread at LCF...and then starts backpedaling!

It all started on April 28th, 2008, when he posted the following:

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Why the fascination with Kimmer? #16


Welcome to: Why the fascination with Kimmer? #16

As a reminder, please be respectful of dissenting views and please avoid personal insults of others - including the subject of these threads. Thank you. "


Well, to put it mildly, I found that post just a tad unusual.

And then Tom posts this further admonishment on May 12, 2008:

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Please try to stay on topic in this thread. Many members are complaining that they are interested in keeping up, but don't have time to read through all the chit chat. Use other threads for other topics. Thank you. "


And then, after being taken to task by LosingToLive, Tom does the big backpedal:

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Originally Posted by LosingToLive

Oops, Sorry Tom .

When we are "goaded" to respond, sometimes we ( I ) can't help it.

We have all worked very hard to get to thread number 17. We don't mean to take this thread in another direction, we're just making friends.*gasp*

Yes, it’s important to stay on topic but we have all worked side by side for so long, it’s like a family reunion.

We understand what your’re saying, and we know that some people only have time for the "results". We are the ones that are bringing the "results", sometimes we get carried away with our hard work.

I for one will not clutter this thread with friendly talk; we don’t want this thread to disappear. I just don’t understand why things have changed.

I don't want people complaining to you while they are suffering. If they are having such a hard time with this thread, it must be pretty “traumatic for them to contact you. * I *(me) apologize. I’m not trying to be a jerk (sometimes it happens). I understand how someone wants "details only", but we are the ones that went out and *got those details*.

Tom, It is your board ,and we will abide by your rules. I wish I would have known that the rules change. WE have worked our butts off to get this info to the lawyers, etc. NO, we weren’t always on topic, but we kicked butt. Good job Ducks !

If I disappear, ask around and someone will be able to contact me.

Take care Ducks, you're work is important. Stand tall, and keep going. We only wished that someone would have dropped the “details” in our laps, instead *we worked for them*.


No rules changed. I simply reminded everyone to try to stay on topic for the benefit of everyone that would like to read the thread. That doesn't mean to only post "results". I understand that friendships are made and there will naturally be some posts unrelated to the topic, but I just ask you to consider whether some of the comments could be posted in other more appropriate forums or threads or in a PM.

It actually doesn't matter much to me since I don't read all the posts in these threads, but some people that would like to are simply unable to keep up because of the large volume of off-topic posts and have expressed some frustration.

How do the rest of you feel about it? Do you think it's insulting to ask everyone to try not to stray so far from the topic of the thread? "


Well, Tom, you've taken a page out of Heidi's book. And guess what? It IS too late to take that back.

These posters are your bread and butter, lining your pockets with silver by purchasing from your company, Netrition.

It appears the damage is done, Tom, as there is much talk of a mass exodus from LCF because of the continual hand-slapping and admonishments by yourself and other admins.


And in a fit of pique this afternoon (Tuesday, May 13/08), Tom next posts the following:

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Originally Posted by Mayberryfan
Linc/Lou ~

I'm not under the impression that anyone thinks Dee is OT. It's that some of us, myself most definitely included, have been reprimanded for making very mild, off-color remarks about Heidi and gotten a no-no note for it. Whereas, people, such as Dee, and others can come in with what appears to be an intent to stir up trouble, call the Ducks "haters" and other such nonsense and they seem free to say whatever they want for as long as they want. To me, THAT'S the crux of the discussion here about what's OT and what isnt. "
"Another complaint about this? You were simply reminded by an admin of the terms of service because of your post: "Every gal needs a little "sea man" in her life." That's all. We don't want posts like that here. "


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Originally Posted by Mayberryfan
Whereas, people, such as Dee, and others can come in with what appears to be an intent to stir up trouble, call the Ducks "haters" and other such nonsense and they seem free to say whatever they want for as long as they want. To me, THAT'S the crux of the discussion here about what's OT and what isnt."

"And we respect Dee's right to express her opinion especially since she was being talked about here. Do you feel she should be banned from the site because you don't agree with her - or would it make more sense to respectfully address her concerns as some others have done here. Instead you laughed and encouraged posts that tell her to not "let the door hit your A## on the way out." What type of reaction do you expect when people talk to you like that?"


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Originally Posted by Tom
And we respect Dee's right to express her opinion especially since she was being talked about here. Do you feel she should be banned from the site because you don't agree with her - or would it make more sense to respectfully address her concerns as some others have done here. Instead you laughed and encouraged posts that tell her to not "let the door hit your A## on the way out." What type of reaction do you expect when people talk to you like that?

"I didn't POST that Tom, I merely laughed in response to it. I don't have a problem with Dee posting her side of things. She has a right to express her side of the issue. As a matter of fact, I've had very few dealings with Dee. My problem is with the fact that lately we don't seem to be able to make any little off-color remark about Heidi. That's my issue!

Hey, it's your board and you can certainly run it as you see fit. I'm not someone who complains about other's posts. I've only complained about one person here and fortunately he chose to leave us on his own. I don't TRY to cause trouble, KWIM? "


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Originally Posted by Tom
Another complaint about this? You were simply reminded by an admin of the terms of service because of your post: "Every gal needs a little "sea man" in her life." That's all. We don't want posts like that here."

"Tom, et al.,

If anyone was offended by that little joke, I honestly apologize. It was not intention to offend anyone (except for Heidi). It was simply meant to be a play on words.

Actually, Mayberry, I would have told Tom to...

And a note to all my Canadian readers:

There's a wonderful Canadian online site, Low Carb Grocery, where you can order all of your favourite low-carb products. I highly recommend this company. You can check it out by clicking on the link on the right-hand side bar of my blog or on the logo below:

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To read my previous posts on Tom, please click on these links:





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Friday, May 9, 2008


Photo by Von Pip*

And the good news just keeps on comin' and comin'...........

Overconsumption of junk food by women who are nursing or pregnant can predispose their children to obesity.

Junk Food in Pregnancy Causes Overeating in Children
Reuters Aug 22, 2007

"LONDON—Children whose mothers eat junk food during pregnancy and breast-feeding are more likely to overeat, choose an unhealthy diet, and grow obese later in life, according to research using rats published on Aug. 15.

Previous studies have shown that children born to obese mothers are likely to be overweight, but the new findings are some of the first to look at what behaviors may be triggering unhealthy eating habits, the researchers said.

"It indicates there is a fetal programming for overeating," said Neil Stickland, a researcher at the Royal Veterinary College in London, who worked on the study.

"The fetuses are getting used to this junk food during gestation," he added in a telephone interview.

"It is not just genetics," he said. "We can show a direct link to what the mothers eat and how it affects the children."

In the study, published in the British Journal of Nutrition, researchers took two groups of pregnant rats and gave one a diet of junk food such as doughnuts, muffins, and sweets and fed the other nutritional pellets.

Surprisingly, Stickland said, there was no effect on birth weight. But when the young rats were weaned, the team found that the animals whose mothers ate junk food put on weight more quickly, had a taste for unhealthy food, and gorged, he added.

Studying rats has implications for humans because the mechanisms controlling appetite are similar in many species, Stickland said.

Obesity is a major issue worldwide and raises the risk of diseases such as type 2 diabetes and heart problems. The World Health Organization classifies around 400 million people as obese, including 20 million children under the age of five.

The study also attempts to better understand what drives appetite, a process controlled by brain centers that respond to signals telling us when we are hungry and when we are full.

The research indicated that the young rats may be overindulging because as they eat more, the "pleasure centers" in the brain stimulated by sugary foods need increased amounts of food to reach the same level of satisfaction.

"Exposure to a maternal junk food diet during their fetal and suckling life might help explain why some individuals might find it harder than others to control their junk food intake even when given access to healthier foods later in life," Stephanie Bayol, a researcher at the Royal Veterinary College, who led the study, said in a statement."


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Thursday, May 8, 2008


Patti, I'm going to make this short and sweet.

By appearing on the main page of Kimkins as a "covergirl" for Kimmer/Heidi Diaz, an admitted liar and fraud, you are endorsing the deadly Kimkins starvation diet.

Photo of Heidi Diaz/Kimmer, in Nov. 2007 (at her deposition in the civil class-action lawsuit) confirming she had lied, once again, about losing any weight on her own deadly Kimkins starvation diet

Patti, I am asking that you read the following posts & watch the videos, and after doing same, reconsider allowing Kimmer to keep your picture on her website:


FOX-TV’s Morning Show with Mike and Juliet:

KVUE--Beware of Internet Diet Scam

Patti, theTRUTH left a message for you in the comment section of this post. I have copied it here just in case you miss it:

"theTRUTH said...

Yes, Patti, please reconsider your public endorsement of this fraud. She is using your success as free advertising to further that fraud. You have the right to eat however you want to. It is your health and your body. However, allowing Heidi to use your images and personal story to make more money from more unsuspecting, desperate dieters who don't know the history and lies of Heidi (as you must), crosses the line of innocent victim of a scam artist, and ventures into the realm of enabler or even accomplice. The lawsuit is very real, and there are huge numbers of real people who have been and continue to be taken by this scam artist.

One more note. I saw in your bio that you lost a great deal using Atkins (a safe, sensible, controlled carb way of eating) but had problems keeping it off. You may want to reserve your public endorsement of kimkins until after you have had a chance to see if you can maintain the kimkins losses without developing a long term eating disorder. If you are eating the calorie levels suggested by Heidi's plan, your metabolism is likely damaged and you will find maintenance nearly impossible, and suffer who knows what other kinds of health problems. Others have been down this path before you, and it isn't pretty. Medusa is giving you a chance here to reach out and do some research before it is too late. Take that opportunity, for your own sake. You do not want to be associated with this woman.

May 8, 2008 10:07 AM"

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Wednesday, May 7, 2008


So this is why pizza and burgers and all things fattening are so tempting and irresistible...

"Study: Hunger hormone works by making food look more appealing"

by HELEN BRANSWELL, The Canadian Press

"TORONTO — A hormone produced in the gut spurs people to eat more by making food look more appealing, new research reveals.

The study, by researchers with McGill University’s Montreal Neurological Institute, shows that the hormone, ghrelin, activates parts of the brain involved in sensations of pleasure or reward.

"Ghrelin is a gut signal — it’s the way the gut communicates with the brain to make you hungry," explained Dr. Alain Dagher, a neurologist who studies the workings of the brain in drug addiction.

"And how it does that is by increasing the rewarding nature of food cues, by making food pictures or food thoughts or food objects more attractive to you. And therefore increasing the probability that you will eat."

The system is probably an evolutionary holdover from the time when food was scarce and getting it came at a physical cost, Dagher suggested. In order to survive as a species, our ancestors had to view expending the energy to secure food as more compelling than the impulse to conserve energy.

"So our brain evolved to make us have this extremely powerful drive to eat. And ghrelin is one of the signals — it may be one of the most potent signals — in that drive to eat," he explained.

The study, published in the journal Cell Metabolism, involved giving injections of ghrelin or a placebo to volunteers three hours after they’d eaten a standardized meal. (Ghrelin levels spike when we are hungry and subside after we’ve eaten.)

The trial subjects were then shown pictures — some of different foods, some of scenery — while their brains were being scanned using magnetic resonance imaging, or MRIs.

When those who had received the ghrelin were looking at the food pictures, the MRIs showed the portions of their brains known to be involved in pleasure — the so-called reward centres — lit up, signalling they were activated.

That pattern of brain activation was not seen when they were looking at the pictures of scenery or when the people who received the placebo injection — saline solution — viewed the food pictures.

In addition, parts of the brain involved in vision were more active when the volunteers who got the ghrelin injection looked at the pictures of food, suggesting they were actually processing the visual information better. They later remembered the food pictures better as well.

The reward centres activated in the experiment are also known to be involved in drug addiction. That suggests it’s reasonable to believe that high-calorie food might have greater appeal — and greater addictive potential — than lower-calorie alternatives, Dagher said, though he hastened to say this study doesn’t prove that.

In fact, the researchers did not try to measure in this work whether burgers and pizza — a couple of their pictured foods — triggered greater brain activity than did salads, which were also shown.

They did find, though, that while all those who got the ghrelin injection responded, the level of response differed among the individuals.

That underscores the complexity of the system — and the challenge of trying to use the information to find ways to modify eating impulses, said Dr. Diane Finegood, scientific director of the Canadian Institutes of Health Research’s Institute of Nutrition, Metabolism and Diabetes."


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Tuesday, May 6, 2008


Look at the image below. Is the dancer turning clockwise or counter-clockwise?


If you see her turning clockwise, then the left side of your brain is doing most of the work, which means you are more of a logical/analytical person.

If you see the dancer turning counter-clockwise, then the right side of your brain is in charge, meaning you are an artistic/intuitive person.

Your brain controls the direction in which the dancer turns.

Now that your brain is all scrambled, here are some pointers from Dave Barry:


"1. Never, under any circumstances, take a laxative and a sleeping pill on the same night.

2. If you had to identify, in one word, the reason why the human race has not achieved and never will achieve its full potential, that word would be "meetings."

3. There is a very fine line between "hobby" and "mental illness."

4. People who want to share their religious views with you almost never want you to share yours with them.

5. You should not confuse your career with your life.

6. Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.

7. Never lick a steak knife.

8. The most destructive force in the universe is gossip.

9. You will never find anybody who can give you a clear and compelling reason why we observe daylight savings time.

10. You should never say anything to a woman that even remotely suggests that you think she's pregnant unless you can see an actual baby emerging from her at that moment.

11. There comes a time when you should stop expecting other people to make a big deal about your birthday. That time is age eleven.

12. The one thing that unites all human beings, regardless of age, gender, religion, economic status or ethnic background, is that, deep down inside, we ALL believe that we are above-average drivers.

13. A person who is nice to you but rude to a waiter is not a nice person (This is very important. Pay attention. It never fails.)

14. Your friends love you anyway."


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Jennette Fulda (PastaQueen) after

Jennette Fulda before

Half-Assed author PastaQueen talks about her new book, weight loss, fat pants, and gas mileage

"Diet blogger and former CalorieLab guest blogger Jennette Fulda (”PastaQueen”) book based on her blog “Half of Me” was released on May 1. CalorieLab spoke with Jennette about her book and other topics.

CalorieLab: What is your book about?

PastaQueen: Half-Assed: A Weight-Loss Memoir is the story of how I lost half my weight without losing my sense of humor. Hopefully you’ll only put it down because it will make you want to get up and exercise. If not, at least all the laughing you’ll do is good cardio. It’s not a diet book. There are plenty of books that will tell you what to eat and how to exercise. Mine is about what it was like to lose almost 200 pounds and how the journey changed me.

CL: Have you struggled with your weight your whole life?

PQ: I can’t remember a time when I didn’t consider myself fat. In 5th grade I filled out a survey for school and answered the question, “What is one thing you’d like to change about yourself?” with the response, “I’d be thinner.” I gradually kept putting on weight from elementary school through college, occasionally losing some weight by taking up walking.

CL: What was your highest weight?

PQ: 372 was the highest number I ever saw on the scale.

CL: What made you decide to lose weight for real? How did you go about doing it?

PQ: I had to have my gallbladder removed when I was 23. After that I vowed to lose weight, and then I didn’t. For the year following that, my younger brother actually did lose 60 pounds, which inspired me to try it too.

CL: How did you go about doing it?

PQ: When January rolled around, I started a diet and exercise routine. I also blogged about it at, which helped keep me accountable. These days I weigh between 180-185 pounds.

CL: Are you basically on the South Beach Diet?

PQ: I haven’t read the book in awhile, but I think I still follow most of the guidelines. When I eat carbs, I try to eat healthier carbs like fruits and whole grains. I stay away from trans-fats and saturated fats. I eat lean meats. And I still indulge now and then, like eating ice cream on my birthday.

CL: Is it relatively easy to live in the real world and follow that diet?

PQ: No matter what your diet, it’s pretty hard to live in the modern world and stay on track. The break rooms of America are filled with donuts and cookies, not baby carrots and celery sticks.

CL: Did you ever consider bariatric surgery?

PQ: If I hadn’t been able to lose the weight through diet and exercise I would have seriously considered bariatric surgery. I know many people consider it the “easy” way out, but when you read about all the complications and difficulties that come with the surgery, none of it sounds easy to me. If losing weight and keeping it off without medical intervention were easy, more people would be doing it. At this time, weight loss surgery is the most reliable way to induce weight loss in the morbidly obese.

CL: So you see a place for bariatric surgery?

PQ: Well, hopefully in the future there will be treatments that are less drastic. Until then, I consider bariatric surgery to be a procedure that has saved many lives, but hopefully a last resort after someone has given serious effort to losing weight through diet and exercise. I think everyone has to determine what is best for their health in coordination with their doctor.

CL: You recently stopped reporting your weight as often as before. Low carb diet blogger
Jimmy Moore stopped reporting his weight for a while, and the next thing we heard he had gained back a chunk of weight and was briefly on the notorious Kimkins diet.

PQ: There is certainly pressure to keep the weight off, but that’s not the reason I changed the weigh-in schedule. I used to weigh in on the blog once a week, but now I just do it once a month. I still weigh myself every day to hold myself personally accountable for my weight. I changed the public schedule because I’ve basically been maintaining my weight for the past year. I might lose two pounds one week and then gain a pound the next, then lose a pound again. Reporting on that was boring! It was much more interesting when I had a lot of weight to lose and the numbers kept changing. After a while I felt like a weatherman standing in a snowstorm who had to keep reporting, “Yeah, it’s still snowing.” Instead I was saying, “Yeah, my weight is still around 180.” I didn’t have anything new to say about it, so it was getting rather tedious to talk about it every week. However, I don’t want to gain back the weight I’ve lost, so I do still weigh in, just not as frequently."

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