UPDATE FROM BONYPINK (April 18, 2010)
Thank you very much for removing the photo, I have been trying for YEARS to get them all off the net.
There was a point in time, some years back, where you couldn't find a single stupid pro-ana site that didn't have at least one or two of those horrible photos on it.
Over the years, thankfully, I've been legally getting hundreds of websites shut down and/or those photos removed. I usually ask them first, but often some of them actually have the audacity to tell me "no." It is then that I involve my lawyer and teach the little brats a lesson they won't forget about photo-theft.
I've even had to put up with some of those idiot pro-anas/wannarexics telling me things about the photos such as, "If you didn't want people to take them, you shouldn't have posted them online."
I DIDN'T post them online. I was forced to pose in those photos (along with another girl who I became friends with while this was going on) by a horrible man who raped and beat us daily. He had been holding us against our will and forcing us to pose nude and semi-nude in pornographic fetish photos for these horrible sick anorexic fetishists. So, no, I did NOT post those terrible photos on the internet.
Oh, by the way. No worries about you, though, 2Medusa. I haven't grouped you in with those rotten pro-ana idiots. I know you only meant to show the harsh reality of eating disorders, and I am very glad that you, too, speak out against the horrible pro-anas as well as try to educate the public about eating disorders. (I do this as well over my own websites and over facebook, youtube and xanga.)
Best wishes to you, and thank you again for removing the photo(s).
Oh yes, I almost forgot...
As for whoever it was up there who said I was never anorexic, "d'arcy" I think;
I am terminally ill, residing in a hospice, dying from multiple organ failure which has been caused by anorexia nervosa, type II. I've been diagnosed with anorexia nervosa for over 25 years (not counting the years I had the illness before being diagnosed). My anorexia nervosa was caused by FGM and being raped and abused all throughout my childhood, adolescence and adulthood.
There are a LOT of rumors about me floating around the internet. I would suggest that unless you have spoken directly to ME, not to spread any more of them, please.
April 18, 2010 6:13 PM"
Tips from an Ana website
(complete with typos & redundant tips)
Please note that I did not write these. These "tips" are all over the internet.
"Remember that you do have to eat sometimes. Not a lot of course but you have to eat something. Make sure you eat at least two things each day.
Remember that Ana is not always fun. It can be so awful sometimes you'll want to die. You'll learn alot about yourself but we don't want any accidents do we? There no use being thin if your dead.
There's food inside the fridge right? Wrong. All thats in the fridge is faliure! Is that what you want?
Does Ana want to go in the fridge? No she does not. Its time youy started paying attention to what Ana wants, not what you want.
The butter is congeled custard, the meat dead cat (eww) etc etc, Make up gross images for all the foods you snack on.
Open the fridge. Look inside. Look at all that food. Is it really that great? You don't need it really do you?
Anorexic Wallmeyer Twins
The food is sneaky. It is trying to tempting you to eat it and get fat/ter. Try this when your alone: Look at the food and laugh at it. No seriously, try this. Laugh at the food and tell it out loud how stupid it is. Tell it how it can't tempt you and you won't be going anywhere near it. Tell the food you don't need it. This is very helpful when your craving. It helps me all the time.
If all else fails, i hear padlocks are effective ;)
Never eat anything bigger than about a cup, your stomach will expand and then you'll get hungry more.
Eat in front of a mirror naked. See how much you can eat then!
Hit your stomach (just not too hard) if it's growling too loudly.
Curl up in a ball if you have hunger pains.
Wear perfectly applied lip gloss. It makes you more aware of what's going in your mouth. Also, flavored ones help with cravings.
When going out, take only the amount of money you'll need. Nothing extra, that way you won't be tempted to spend it on food.
Have 6 small meals a day. Take 2 apples, and split them so you can make 6 meals out of them. That way your body will be tricked into thinking it's eating more.
Find a buddy onine, and do fasts with them, competitions, or just have someone to email when you're craving.
Wear a rubber-band around your wrist and snap it against your skin when you are tempted to eat.
If you eat right before bed, lay on your left side so the food goes through your system faster.
Chew gum if you need to cook so you won't eat any of the food.
If you're a smoker and hungry, light up a cigarette. It curbs your appetite.
Before you dig into that cake, bag of chips, candy, or whatever, take a deep breath and count to 100. Usually by the time you get to 100 you will have convinced yourself that you don't really want it.
When you're hungry chug 2 glasses (or how many you need) of straight water. It'll make you so full and nauseous you will have completely lost your appetite.
Spin in circles, you will be too nauseous to eat.
If you're right handed, eat with your left hand. It will take a lot longer to get the food to your mouth.
Find something that makes you feel ill or unpleasant and think or look at it as you eat. After a while you make begin to associate food itself with unpleasantness.
Fidgeting burns 500-800 extra calories a day. Suck in your tummy and squeeze your buns, bounce your legs, sway side to side, swing your feet, ect.
Take a shower. Hot steamy water can suppress your appetite and paying close attention to your body will remind you exactly why you're losing weight in the first place.
When eating, put down your silverware or sip water in between each bite. Your stomach will feel full faster and you are less likely to overeat.
Chew every bite at least thirty times. Your food will taste better and you will be much more satisfied. Don't swallow until all the flavor is gone from of each bite.
Pay attention to when and what you are eating. Ask yourself: "Do I really want to eat this?"
Weigh yourslef before and after every time you eat. Not only will it eliminate unnecessary eating, but it will make you want to eat less when you see the numbers creep up.
When dining out, no matter what the waiter says about the fat or calorie content of food assume everything is covered with butter, even the silverware.
Cleaning something dirty can make you lose your appetite. The toilet, the litter box, under the kitchen sink, scrubbing out the garbage bin, anything grimy or smelly. The mess, along with the smell of the cleaner, can put you off food for a while.
Make it a rule that you always have to burn twice the calories you consume (i.e., if you ate something with 100 calories, you would have to burn 200). The thought of all the exercising you would have to do can be very discouraging.
Turn the temperature down in your car/house, or open windows in your room at night, so that you'll be colder and your body will have to burn calories to keep warm.
When you lose weight reward yourself with something you want (not food obviously). Shopping is always good.
Instead of buying food, buy yourself flowers. Food is depressing, but flowers make you happy.
Exchange a bad habit for a good one (i.e. someone trades smoking for jogging). This may be hard, but very rewarding if you can do it. Exchange eating for yoga, or meditation, or reading more.
Think higher of yourself! You're too good to put THAT in your body!
Save the money you would have spent on that meal in a jar. Save it in a bottle instead and watch it grow.
Eat vicariously. Watch other people eat, and feel superior! You don't need that food. They are feeding their fat bodies and they're getting fatter! You can see then growing! How repulsive.
Brush your teeth frequently. A fresh mouth helps keep you from wanting to eat.
Different sleeping habits. Go to bed later than everyone else, so you can exercise while they're sleeping. Wake up later, and have a light breakfast when they eat lunch, they'll think nothing of it.
If you feel like you want to eat, go to a friends house that you cannot just raid the fridge at.
Spoil your food. As soon as you've cooked/served up your meal, put too much salt, pepper, sauce, (or even detergent) on it. That way you won't want to eat it!
Wear a rubber band on your wrist and snap it when you feel like eating.
Brush your teeth when you feel like eating.
Ok, so you feel hungry. Its all in your head. Don't waste time with food. Food is a hindrance to your progress and we know Ana is always watching. Are you seriously going to eat in FRONT of her. Lets not be rude.
Ana knows you can do this and you knew you could do this before you started thinking about food. So stop dreaming of cookies, focus yourself and remember why your hungry in the first place. You want this, you need this so don't wreck it now.
Leave the house with no money and walk around, chase butterflies, take the dog until the need to binge has gone.
If your by your self start yelling at your self. Tell your self you don't need this. Scream if it helps. Just get the binge feelings out of your system. I find this very effective.
Spray perfume on the food you're dying to eat. You won't (and shouldn't cause you'll get really sick) eat it then.
Be sure to fuck up your relationship with food from the start. You want to make yourself as neurotic as possible about food, eating, kitchens, cutlery, refrigerators, restaurants, and hey, why not stretch this out even further and start hating the actual source of foods, in other words the actual animals and plants.
Associate food with disgusting things. Draw pictures of juicy red apples, somehow morphing into giant dead rotting pigs. Put pictures of fat girls on your fridge, or better yet, pictures of yourself for a bit of productive self-loathing.
Create a list of suitable punishments either for thinking of food, or for caving in and eating food itself. A good one to try is to keep a rubber band on your hand and flick your skin whenever you think of eating. Eventually you will have a swollen hand, and a shrunken body; you will have ceased thinking of food so much. Other punishments include ridiculous amounts of exercise, purging, self-mutilation, isolation, basic denial of necessary comforts such as blankets on a cold night, or shelter when it is raining.. or simply menial, disgusting tasks such as cleaning the bathroom. Remember, you need discipline.
Trick yourself into believing your life sucks. Be mean to people so that they instigate fights, just to make you constantly on edge, or nervous, so you cant eat. After all, you'll be light-headed and dizzy, and irritable from not eating, so you have an excuse. Become an angst-ridden teenager. You'll be making yourself nauseous from worry and self hatred in no time.
"An imperfect body reflects an imperfect person."
"I'm not starving myself...I'm perfecting my emptiness."
"Nothing tastes as good as thin feels."
Look at pictures of anorexics. This should be enough to sufficiently fuck up and cloud your perceptions. Above all, convince yourself you are above others, a hero, owing to your spectacular powers of restraint. Feel elitist. Feel as though you are somehow super-human for resisting the urge to eat. Feel better than the other mere mortals who dig in to their cereal and their donuts. Believe in the power of starving as though it were a religion.
Make up rules you cannot deviate from. Only allow yourself one food a day. You will get sick of the taste and therefore eat less due to boredom.
Brush your teeth and tongue all the time. Food will taste yukky with toothpaste, so whats the point of eating it?
Eat while in the front of the mirror naked. You will be completely repulsed, and repelled from the food. This is a good thing.
Feel your hunger..don't try to suppress it. You WANT to be hungry. If you're not then you're not doing it right. Hunger is not your enemy!
Did you know that there are 2 pounds of dead skin on you right now!!?! Thats right! 2 POUNDS! ...if you're underweight or in starvation mode your body does not "shed" its skin the way it should. It holds on to it.
Pinch your thigh and see how you don't need food, because you should be eating your own flesh all away from the inside first, before you are deserving of actual legitimate sustenance.
Buy some baby teething gel and rub it on your tongue, to numb your tastebuds.
If you're feeling brave enough to face the kitchen, go there and throw out any potential binge foods. If you must, pour bleach/disinfectant/dishwashing detergent on the food, and then throw it away!
Pinch your ear! Apply pressure to the front of the ear, one at a time.
Let perfume replace chocolate. Every time you have a craving, or pass a bakery, sniff some Chanel no. 5. Apply it to a tissue and carry it with you. Smell has a powerful effect on appetite.
Clean something. Cleaning something dirty can make you lose your appetite. The toilet, the litter box, under the kitchen sink, scrubbing out the garbage bin, anything grimy or smelly. The mess, along with the smell of the cleaner, can put you off food for a while.
Deny anorexia at all costs. Pretend you have not noticed the pounds dropping off you. Don't be suspicious.
Whenever you do decide to eat, do it in the company of others. That way they can't say they never see you touch food.
Leave a dirty plate lying around every so often for your parents to yell at you about.
Drink out of opaque cups, and spit your food into it whilst preteding to drink. They'll never know.
Eat really slowly because if everybody else is on their third slice of pizza, they'll assume you are too, even if you're still finishing your first.
Sign out of hotmail and clear the history before you get off of the Internet. This will eliminate Autofill being ever so helpful while your Mum is researching aardvarks, and coming up with www.anorexicsanonymous.com for her. In short, don't leave traces lying around for others to find.
Purge in the shower, or in your sink while music is playing, people will be less supicious.
If you're about to binge, chew some gum, and think to yourself "2/3rd's of America is obese. Why add to that number?"
Make up places to go. say you're going to a friends house for dinner, or going out to a restaurant, and then just go somewhere where you can't eat.
When you are hungry do something gross like dig for worms clean a kitty litter box or something it will make you just not hungry.
Always eat teaspoon size amounts of food at any one time and chew well.
Check your head. Never eat anything bigger than your head, even lettuce. You'll only stretch your stomach out. Train your tummy to settle for less
If you love a certain food, save the wrappers even after you've eaten it. Smell it when you're hungry
Never eat anything bigger that your fist
Get your tongue pierced, therefore you can't eat
If you're being watched, try the opaque cup trick; pretend you're eating, and spit the food in the cup while you pretend to be drinking - don't forget to get rid of what's in the cup
Go to the kitchen often, and pretend your snacking, take a bite out of something and take a long time, look in the fridge, ETC! they will think you're always in the kitchen eating, and won't suspect anything.. trust me if you never go in the kitchen, your family *will* notice
Hit your stomach when it grumbles because that will make the sound go away and your stomach will hurt too much to eat
Persuade yourself that you don't like a food, take your favorite food and when you look at it and think yum, think yuck instead
Hide a plate or zip lock bag near your computer..right before supper go to your computer room and when supper is ready say your doing your homework and want them to bring your meal to you..when u get it just put it in the other plate or zip lock bag and bring the dish back up in 15 min.'s..it works just make sure u dispose of the food later
Taking more than the recommended dose of kelp makes you feel sick and you don't have to try and restrict ... not sure about the safety aspect of this tip though
Buy lunches/dinners of canned/contained foods, like lunch buckets, then without cooking them hide them in your room or locker as if you were eating them, and instead walk/drive them once a week to your local homeless shelter
When you are in school, grab something on your way out the door to eat(because you're in a hurry)-throw it out. Then when lunch time comes go to the library instead of with your friends -they will only fuck things up. Then get involved in an activity that goes really late so you come home after everyone else has eaten and you can take a plate of food to your room to eat while you are doing your homework (put the food in a bag and throw it out with tomorrows breakfast. The only thing is weekends- try to stay as busy as possible
Wearing "fashionable" gloves and scarves really helps when you get cold… and makes people less suspicious than if you're always bitching that you're cold when they're all fine
When you feel you need to eat, list the reasons why its not such a good idea, by then you'll most likely lose the craving, and you'll have convincing reasons not to eat
On an empty stomach coffee will make you feel sick and will curb your appetite.
Sniff scented markers or anything else that may smell like a fruit and then you won't be hungry anymore
Whenever you get hungry, think of all the people who made fun of you in junior high.
If you're annoyed at your family for always trying to make you eat breakfast with them, tell them (while holding your stomach with your arms and looking like you're about to puke) that you always feel sick after you eat in the morning so early. Or that you have to go swimming in a few hours, and that you don't like eating before that.
Eat a tiny piece of onion (like 1/2 in square). That way you have onion breath and people believe you really ate.
After you eat brush your teeth. You won't want to eat when you have that minty taste and you teeth are clean
Get tape or those roll up bandages and wind them tightly around your stomach..it stops you from eating because you can't get the food down properly and you also look thinner
If you eat at night before you go to bed make sure you lay on your left side it makes the food go through your system faster and wont have as much time to suck fat out of the food. but you shouldn't eat before you go to bed slows down your metabolism
Just keep yourself extremely busy, almost to the point of being completely stressed out and you can go for 8hrs without being hungry or wanting to eat
If you don't feel comfortable not eating too much, eat only a hard boiled egg, an apple, and a glass of water. It will fill you up all day
If you live with your parents, go to bed early & sleep late to avoid some meals, then go out in the day, & say you've eaten a lot. Also, keeping busy will burn more calories
If you can, get a job around food. I work at an Arby's, and it has curbed my appetite drastically
If sitting at school, college etc. constantly tap your feet/fingers. Fidgeting throughout day is proven to burn up to 800 calories per day
If you're talking about celebrities, make sure to mention how you think Calista Flockhart is too thin and that you think Kate Winslet is gorgeous. Praise fat and people will never guess that you're starving yourself into thinness
Wear nail polish to cover up the bluish tinge that starvation gives your fingernails so others don't suspect it as much
Have to go to a restaurant with someone? Some ways you can avoid eating much - 1. veganism (makes it hard to find suitable food); 2. severe food allergies (always a good answer when they offer chocolate!), or 3. order something that you've never tried before. When you taste it, say you don't like it
Think about what the food would look like in your body after you have eaten it... hopefully that will put you off
My friend, Karlene, November, 2008
If you're with your family or something, and you're at a buffet, spend most of the time acting like you're picky, and walk around the buffet tables. Then just get a little something and spit it in your cup or something. Sneak in some exercise too while you're walking
Hit your stomach when it grumbles because that will make the sound go away and your stomach will hurt too much to eat.
Every time you are about to eat something ask yourself "Do I really want that food more than I want to be skinny?"
Make up crazy food rituals and follow them religiously. Track them in your Ana book.
Associate food with feeling sick. You wont want to eat something,if the sight of it repulses you.
Only eat with skinny people, and then eat half of what they eat.
Video tape yourself, and look at it to see how fat you look.
Dont eat lunch- save your lunch money and buy a present for yourself later.
Watch what other people, especially fat people, eat, and feel superior...because they are feeding their fat bodies and they're getting fatter!
Check the fridge when nobody else is around...find food that you would have eaten and get rid of it..then you can say that you ate it
Only eat when other people can see you. That way they cant say "you never eat!"
Leave dirty dishes around the house (example: pour a little milk in a bowl and put some peices of cereal in it and say you ate it) people will think your eating
Don't act oddly. If you're always commenting on how skinny people are or how fattening certain foods are, someone's bound to find how obsessed you are, no one needs to know this except for you.
If you go to a resturant and really cant stand the thought of eating then take a purse lined with plastic inside and order a low fat meal and eat some but when no-one is looking drop some in the bag. ***BE EXTREMELY CAREFUL WITH THIS!!!***
Try not to give too much attention to the mirror when people are near, people might notice.
Avoid watching movies about ana or mia when friends or family are around. Trust me...this makes their suspicion grow!
Just plain out loud lie, it always works, unless its an obvious lie or your a bad liar.
Calculate how much money you're saving by not eating and add this up until you have enough to buy something you like (but not food).
Think about food before and while you eat it. Think about where it came from and exactly what happened to it before it reached you. This works particularly well with meat, dairy, and egg products.
Find something that makes you feel vaguely ill or unpleasant, get a picture of it, and put the picture beside your food. Switch pictures frequently and make sure to look at the pictures while you eat. After a while you may began to associate food itself with unpleasantness, which will make you less inclined to eat.
Sabotage your food. Make it with too much water, too little sugar, an ingredient you don't care for. Add too much salt or pepper before you eat. You will eat less of it if it tastes bad.
Remember, think thin, and try not to faint too often or die."
Hila Elmalich, RIP
Link with video on Hila: HOW MANY MODELS HAVE TO DIE ?
Parents, be vigilant. If your child is exhibiting any of the above behaviours, seek professional help for your child immediately.