"Saturday, 08 August 2009
How Anorexia Found Me
It just started with grades.
Coming from a pretty strict Asian family, there was a whole lot of pressure for me to have straight A’s in my ‘special’ (way above average) middle school. At home, I would receive direct pressure from my parents to “do my best” (aka “you’re not good enough”), and at school I was pressured indirectly by my extremely crazy-brilliant peers.
I tried my hardest. I really did. But I still got 70s and 80s (which is wayyy below Asian fail), and pretty soon I gave up on trying to get A’s and B’s, I just settled for the C’s.
I felt extremely bad for my parents. In some weird twisted up mentality, I only tried to get good grades in school for my parents. I didn’t care about learning anything, getting good grades for myself, or having fun. Seeing my parents light up and say “good job” when I told them that I had gotten a 98% on a quiz was all I ever strived for. I wanted to be approved in the eyes of my parents, and it tore me up when I failed a test and they yelled at me..."
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And many thanks again, Noreen, for allowing me to share your story. I appreciate it so much.