Saturday, June 5, 2010

JEREMY GILLITZER: A SHADOW OF HIS FORMER SELF [Update: REST IN PEACE, JEREMY]

Jeremy Gillitzer, anorexic, bulimic, anorexia, bulimia(1971 - 2010)

Yesterday, I learned that Jeremy had suddenly passed away on June 1st, 2010, at the age of 38. According to this article, Jeremy weighed only 66 pounds at the time of his death.

Up until the time of his death, Jeremy had been working at the US Census Bureau, Minneapolis office.

I can't tell you how devastated I was to learn of Jeremy's passing. I got to know him through his emails and he was such a lovely person, dedicated to spreading the word about the deadly effects of eating disorders, even as he continued to struggle with his own. He will be sorely missed by his family, friends, and all of those he touched with his story of his lengthy struggle.

Jeremy, may you finally find the peace that eluded you in life. Shine on.


Obituary, Jeremy Gillitzer(Click to enlarge)



ORIGINAL POST:


For Jeremy Gillitzer, his days as a male model must seem light years away.


Jeremy Gillitzer, anorexic, bulimic, anorexia, bulimia

Jeremy's face and body have morphed from well-chiselled to skeletal. He weighs only 90 pounds (41kgs) and has been anorexic and bulimic for over 25 years. Jeremy will be turning 38 years old in a few days time, on August 24, 2009.

Here is Jeremy's story...

From CityPages.com:
Jeremy Gillitzer, anorexic, bulimic, anorexia, bulimia
"Boy, Interrupted


By Kevin Hoffman

Published on October 30, 2007

"At first I worried I'd have trouble picking Jeremy out of the crowd—Caribou Coffee was packed—but there was no mistaking him. "Gaunt" isn't the word. He's fragile. Brittle. His skin is stretched so tight over his temples that you can practically see his thoughts.

All the seats were taken, so we carried our coffee next door to Subway. The restaurant was empty, but Jeremy insisted on asking permission to sit down. "We're going to order before we leave," he promised. Although Jeremy's appearance would seem to suggest otherwise, the guy making sandwiches wasn't inclined to argue.



Jeremy Gillitzer, anorexic, bulimic, anorexia, bulimia

A half-hour later, Jeremy approached the counter again and dug his hand into his pocket, plucking out a tiny, folded-up coupon. It entitled him to a kids' meal—a third the size of an adult sub. Jeremy got a scoop of tuna fish on wheat, a small milk, a four-ounce yogurt, and a cookie.

He took his meal home to his downtown Minneapolis condo, ate it in small bites, then vomited it down the drain.

Jeremy may be an extreme example, but more men than ever are suffering from eating disorders. Earlier this year, Harvard researchers released the results of the first major nationwide mental health survey to include eating disorders. It found that men accounted for 25 percent of anorexia and bulimia cases and a full 40 percent of binge eaters. "These disorders are less common in men, but maybe not quite as rare as we once thought," says Dr. James I. Hudson, the study's lead author.

There's even a tabloid-friendly name for the disorder: manorexia. The neologism was apparently coined by Dennis Quaid, who used it in an interview with Best Life to describe his experience of losing 40 pounds to play Doc Holliday in 1994's Wyatt Earp. "I'd look in the mirror and see a 180-pound guy, even though I was 138 pounds," Quaid said.



Jeremy Gillitzer, anorexic, bulimic, anorexia, bulimia
Other celebrities rumored to have suffered from "manorexia" include Ethan Hawke and Billy Bob Thornton (post-Angelina Jolie).

"There's a lot of reason to believe that body image concerns are increasing in both women and men," says Dr. Hudson.

Jeremy, who asked that his last name be withheld to protect his privacy, entered the world in St. Paul on August 23, 1971, an event he'd later sum up in four words: "The spawn is born." His biological dad didn't stick around, and his mother, who worked at a department store, married a carpenter, who dutifully adopted Jeremy.

"The relationship with my stepdad was horrible; he treated me like shit," Jeremy says. "He acted like I was an intruder in his home."

Jeremy was a pudgy kid, still carrying his baby fat, and his weight was a frequent target for his stepfather's ire. "He'd always say I was fat, or needed to lose weight," Jeremy says.

If that wasn't enough, Jeremy was going through puberty and confronting the fact that he was gay. The very thought of it horrified him. He could only imagine how his stepdad would react. And what about his grandparents, with whom he played Yahtzee?

Then, when he was 12, Jeremy discovered a solution to both problems: starvation.



Jeremy Gillitzer, anorexic, bulimic, anorexia, bulimia

"It serves two purposes," Jeremy says. "It serves a very applied purpose in that if you're doing the behaviors, you don't have time to think about being gay. And also being malnourished, you don't feel sexual, so you don't have to worry about being gay or straight."

Daralyn Sachs, a childhood friend of Jeremy's, remembers him as an emotionally needy boy who was always looking for an excuse to get out of his house. If they had a play date for Saturday morning, he'd be at her house bright and early at 7:00 a.m.

"He'd eat dinner at our house—I'm sure he would sleep over if he could," she says. "He would go from house to house, searching for somewhere to be other than home."

Within months of starting his crash diet, Jeremy was suffering advanced symptoms of starvation. He was sensitive to cold and had grown a fine coat of body hair. He saw a doctor in November 1983 who took one look at the 85-pound boy and diagnosed him with anorexia nervosa.

A month later, after losing nine more pounds, Jeremy entered Children's Hospital of St. Paul. "Jeremy is a 12-year-old boy admitted for evaluation and treatment of anorexia nervosa," reads the December 15, 1983 evaluation. "He is somewhat irritable and is having difficulty concentrating on his schoolwork. He is substantially small for his age."

The doctors employed a carrot-and-stick approach, with mixed success. Jeremy was allowed to eat anything he wanted, but his television, telephone, and visiting privileges would be taken away if he didn't meet goals for gaining back the weight. Jeremy put back on the pounds and was discharged after a month, but within a year of returning home, he was back to his bad habits.

By 14, Jeremy was stealing laxatives from the local pharmacy and taking the round pink pills by the handful. At his worst, he swallowed 30 Correctols at once. "I was throwing up, and turning around and sitting down and going to the bathroom, and throwing up, 'cause I was so sick," Jeremy says. "But sometimes I would lose seven pounds from before-and-after by taking those pills. That's in an hour, and it's all water."



Jeremy Gillitzer, anorexic, bulimic, anorexia, bulimia


Jeremy learned how to properly purge when he was sent to Station 62—the adult psychiatric ward of the University of Minnesota Hospital. An older patient named Diane had been throwing up so long, she wore dentures though she was only in her late 20s. "She kind of taught me how to do it," Jeremy says. "Taught me to drink a lot of water to get it all up, and to eat certain foods that are easier." Rice, for example, would still be coming up hours after he ate it. "Whereas things that are liquid are obviously easy to throw up—milk, yogurt, what else? Anything that's liquid or meltable. Soup without all the stuff in it."

Jeremy remembers Station 62 as a veritable Tower of London. To ensure he wouldn't puke up his food, he was confined to a geriatric chair for hours after each meal, he says. When he failed to make weight or acted out, he was sent to solitary confinement in the "Quiet Room"—a tiny cell with little more than a bare mattress.

Jeremy took to puking in protest. "People would look at it and they'd be astounded," Jeremy remembers. "But after a while they got used to it and just gave me a rag and disinfectant spray and had me clean it up."

As Jeremy cycled through treatment centers, he devised ever more elaborate ways to hide his vomit from the staff. "I'd do things to get around them, like throw up in big cups and then hide them, both in the day room and in my room. I would throw up in the washing machine and run it through the rinse cycle—I did that once, I shouldn't say I did that regularly. But it's amazing what you'll do."

Eventually, Jeremy's insurance ran out, and in order to continue treatment, he was committed to what was then known as Anoka State Hospital. It was just as restrictive as Station 62, but with a much more volatile clientele. "The first night I was there, a girl who was schizophrenic started her mattress on fire and we were evacuated into a barbed-wire courtyard," Jeremy says. "It's kind of a lot of shit for an 18-year-old to experience."



Jeremy Gillitzer, anorexic, bulimic, anorexia, bulimia


A psychiatric evaluation prepared around this time reveals the depth of Jeremy's despondence. "During the first few months of hospitalization the patient was obsessed with thoughts of suicide," it reads. "He attempted to choke himself with a towel and again with a belt.... He also states that he has cut his finger tips with razor blades in the past because he felt so numb and needed to know that he could feel something."

After a year at Anoka, Jeremy was discharged, though he wasn't cured, and he moved in with his grandparents. When he grew tired of arranging his binging and purging around their schedule, Jeremy moved into the first apartment of his own.

But try as he might, Jeremy couldn't have a normal life. He hoarded food like a survivalist, his pantries bursting with dozens of boxes of breakfast cereal. When his landlord discovered he was storing food on the patio, Jeremy received a sternly worded letter. "Please don't force me to go to the State Health Department," it said. "You're a nice young man and I don't want this to end in eviction for you."

It couldn't be avoided. Jeremy was kicked out.

Then something amazing happened: Jeremy got better. At 21 years old, he came out of the closet. "It took a couple of years, and it was kind of exploring on my own, and then it was telling a trusted family member, and then another one of them, and then friends, and the next thing you know, you're in drag," Jeremy says with a laugh. Gradually, he stopped binging and purging. The compulsion lifted like a forgotten grudge.

Freed of his symptoms, Jeremy enrolled at the U of M—this time as a student rather than a patient. He pursued his interest in political science, becoming so convinced that he would one day run for office that he had "Jeremy's Campaign for Congress" emblazoned on his checks.



Jeremy Gillitzer, anorexic, bulimic, anorexia, bulimia
Jeremy in his Calvins in 1997

He certainly looked the part. After applying the same rigor to bodybuilding that he'd used in starving himself, the waif sprouted bulging pecs and six-pack abs. He found work as a model and had a few blink-and-you-miss-it cameos in movies—he played a guy holding a cup of soda near an elevator in Mallrats.

"It was a wonderful time of my life," Jeremy says.


Jeremy Gillitzer, anorexic, bulimic, anorexia, bulimia



In 2004, everything fell apart. Jeremy's relationship with his first and only long-term boyfriend ended in a torrent of jealousy and hurt feelings. Then his mother fell seriously ill. Two car accidents within a month pushed him over the edge. Overwhelmed, Jeremy returned to the comfort of his old routine.

"The actual act of purging relieves anxiety—physiologically, it's one of the things it does," Jeremy says.



Jeremy Gillitzer, anorexic, bulimic, anorexia, bulimia



By January 1, 2007, Jeremy was deep in the throes of his eating disorder. "So far, 2007 has been much like 2006 ended," he wrote on his blog. "I woke up twice during the night and binged and purged. Later this morning, I will be going to circuit training class at 8:30. I might also go to spin class immediately following if I feel up to it."

Jeremy started a blog in the hopes of meeting other males with eating disorders, but he soon fell in with an online sisterhood of anorexics. They offered sympathy and comfort, especially when one of their own succumbed. "I was just reading Feisty Frida's Blog and found out the horrible news that Leah just died from her eating disorder," Jeremy wrote on January 10. "It makes me very angry at this awful disease."

Jeremy wasn't much better off. Just five days later, he found himself short of breath after his spin class, his fingers turning blue even though he wasn't cold. Jeremy called a doctor friend and briefly considered going to the hospital, but drank some juice and felt better. Later that night, he binged and purged.

He was withering away; you'd have to be blind not to see it. Finally, the manager of his gym politely asked him to stop coming until he got healthier. It was a liability issue, she explained.

Though no longer exercising, Jeremy continued to shed pounds. On March 16, he weighed 109. Just a month later, he was down to 102 pounds. "Two more pounds..." he wrote on his blog. "And then what? I'll be happy all of the sudden?"

Two weeks later he hit 99, and he wasn't anywhere near happy.

Guess Who?

My hair is falling out and growing on my body...to keep me warm.

My gums are receding.

My reproductive system is dormant...or dead.

I am hunchbacked because my muscles cannot support my neck.

I am extremely constipated.

I have a bedsore on my tailbone from the friction.

An 80-year-old lady, you ask? No, a 35-year-old man.


—Posted on Jeremy's blog on June 15, 2007

If there's one thing Jeremy won't abide, it's questions about whether he's going to enter treatment. As far as he's concerned, that's nobody's business but his own. If you'd experienced what he's been through at hospitals, he says, you'd understand.

Just a few weeks ago, he seemed resigned to death.

"If I'm supposed to be here in a year, I'll be here," he said. "I figure it can't be worse than the amount I've suffered to date, so I'm not afraid of that part of it. The only thing I'm really afraid of is if there was something big I was supposed to do and I wasn't able to do it. That's my only fear."



Jeremy Gillitzer, anorexic, bulimic, anorexia, bulimia



Since then, his mood seems to have brightened. He is considering getting treatment at Methodist Hospital in St. Louis Park, the best local facility for people with eating disorders. He talks about writing a memoir and offering his services as a public speaker. Maybe that's the "something big" he's supposed to do, he says.

Sachs, now a 37-year-old mother of two young boys, hopes her childhood friend will begin the journey to recovery. "I've never seen him this bad," she says. "To me, you always see him the way he should be, and so now when I look at him, I think it's horrible. When I look at him I want to cry."

On January 9th, 2009, Kevin Hoffman's story on Jeremy, Boy, Interrupted, was picked by Inside Edition in its roundup of notable 2008 stories. Congratulations, Kevin, on your compelling story.






And below...the video, Boy, Interrupted: One Man's Struggle with an Eating Disorder, from CityPagesMN, from November 2007, which has this note:

Jeremy, a 36-year-old suffering from anorexia and bulimia, was profiled in City Pages. In this footage from more than a year ago (2006), we see a healthier Jeremy...






For those of you who have read the story, this footage takes place after Jeremy started his blog, but before he stopped going to his gym because of the potential liability issue.

Please take a moment to read Jeremy's blog. He's been to hell and back.

Start here with his first post:

Introduction


(((Jeremy)))

~ Medusa



AN UPDATE FROM JEREMY:

"I would like to speak about my eating disorder to schools, companies, and any organizations that will benefit from my suffering. I know this would help me too.

If anyone knows someone that wants me to speak extemporaneously and answer questions, please let me know. Love, Jeremy."


If you would like to contact Jeremy about a speaking engagement, please send him an e-mail at jeremygillitzer@aol.com.

Many thanks.

~ Medusa



Links:
http://www.citypages.com/2007-10-31/news/boy-interrupted/
http://news.xinhuanet.com/
http://lc.eastday.com

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27 comments:

nsk said...

is he doing well (better) now? have you got any news of him?

Medusa said...

Hi, nsk...

I wasn't able to find any updated information on Jeremy. His last blog post was December, 2008 (http://jeremygillitzer.blogspot.com/). On his blog, he shows a Facebook page, which might have a more recent update:

http://www.facebook.com/jeremygillitzer

I'm hoping someone will post a comment who knows how Jeremy is doing.

Cheers...

~ Medusa

Bryn Meadows said...

your blog is amazing.
this post practically knocked me over.
I'm a counsellor- I've been working with people suffering from eating disorders for about 10 years now. It actually causes me pain to hear people's brutal stories of treatment- it hurts me that people are treated so inhumanly when what they need more than anything is love, support and hope...
Thank you for your writing, and for sharing Jeremy's story.

Medusa said...

Bryn, thank you SO much for your very kind words.

I'm honoured and touched by your comments, especially in light of the work you do to help those suffering from eating disorders. Kudos to you.

All the very best,

Medusa

Anonymous said...

I am friends with him on Facebook and, yes, he is still alive. He just had his birthday a couple of days ago!

Medusa said...

Anonymous, thanks so much for the update on Jeremy. I really appreciate you having taken the time to comment. I hope he had a wonderful birthday.

~ Medusa

Anonymous said...

Medusa, I thought I would comment again -- I am the one who is his friend on Facebook. He posted this today, and I thought I should share it...

"[I]want to speak about [my] eating disorder to schools, companies, and any organizations that will benefit from my suffering. I know this would help me too. If anyone knows someone that wants me to speak extemporaneously and answer questions, please let me know. Love, Jeremy"

I have his e-mail address, but I am reluctant to post it here where anyone could see it and send hate mail. Do you have a solution for anyone who might want to be in contact with him for such a speaking opportunity?

Medusa said...

Anonymous, I would be pleased to add Jeremy's post to my blog post and to the sidebar of my blog, asking that if anyone would like Jeremy to speak at their school, organization, etc. to contact me at gorgon@2medusa.com.

If you could provide me with Jeremy's e-mail address, I will keep it confidential and will forward all inquiries on to him after ensuring they aren't hate mail, etc. I would like to help Jeremy in any way I can.

Perhaps you could ask Jeremy via e-mail if my posting his post would be OK with him. I'll wait to hear from you before posting anything.

Thanks SO much.
xoxoxo

~ Medusa

Anonymous said...

i am thankful for the detail you put into this story. your blog is helpful not just a qucik posting site to garner rankings. you are really heliping and educating people. bless you

Medusa said...

The text of an email sent to me by Lisa to Jeremy:

"Hi Jeremy,
It's tough to know where to start. I'll start with now and go back since the past is so long and deep. I have not purged for about a year now but starved and binged and purged and cut myself for years. I used to throw up into bags when I'd go out for a walk when I was under surveilance, so I giggled a little when I heard of what you had resorted to since it's so ridiculous when pictured after the fact. How do we find ourselves in those head spaces? I know it makes perfect sense and understand why going through treatment is so awful.

I found that gluten intolerance was a big part of what threw my body into the body dysmorphic state. It seems that gluten intolerance can trigger brain dysfunction as well as making one feel fat because of bloating. It also inhibits proper neurological function in the brain.I'm currently trying to focus on nourishing with hemp protein smoothies and lots of raw foods. My digestion is a disaster but I find that the fiber in hemp protein and the high nutrient content is very helpful in rebuilding damage. It is no surprise that the body becomes constipated while trying to hold on to any food that comes into it since it wants to survive. I'm so happy that you are still alive after all you have been through. I believe that you will make a huge difference in lives as you focus on recovering and sharing encouragement.

I am 32 years old and spent half of my life ill. I've found that the deficiencies created by eating disordered practices only cuase a snowball effect, so if you haven't already researched this I would urge you to try a gluten-free dairy-free non chemical diet to see if it relieves the burden on your nervous system. Gluten intolerance causes inflamation throughout the nervous system and the digestive system that can cause your body to reject the food you are intaking. I'm writing this simply as a piece of the puzzle since it is such an overwhelming thing to go through. I hope if you haven't already done so that you will research what I am reccomending. You may find it helps you regain your health. You deserve to experience what it could be like to not struggle so hard just to exist. I'm sending my love and prayers up for you with full hope that you will experience a lasting recovery. I'm doing my best to maintain and recover health and am hoping the same for you.

xoxoxo

Lisa"

Anonymous said...

Jeremy died June 1, 2010. He worked, when he could, at the U.S.
Census Bureau.

Medusa said...

Anonymous, your news about Jeremy is heartbreaking.

Thanks so much for letting me know about Jeremy's passing. I will update my post.

Anonymous said...

I recently came across Jeremy's blog and felt an instant connection which I soon learned came too late. It was too ironic that I found his blog on the day of his death as i was teeming with excitement that there was someone out there like me. How cruel to find out two days later of his passing. I'm 32 and have struggled like Jeremy as a gay man trying to erase my existence by trying to wither my body away. While his death is devastating, I can see he is now at peace. To the brother I never knew, you will always be in my heart.

Alejandra said...

I'm so very sadden by this latest update on Jeremy. Coincidentally, it was through him that I found your site. I was doing an unrelated search on Youtube when I ran across a video about Jeremy's struggle with anorexia and bulimia, and someone had mentioned your blog in one of the comments -- I followed the link to here out of curiosity.

That chance event proved to be a God-sent and a lifesaver for me. I'm 42 years old and had struggled with anorexia in the past. I really thought I had it beat 15 years ago, but mid-life, along with a series of stressful events and a few recent setbacks in my life, caused me to slip back into the old behaviors without realizing it and eventually relapse.

Your blog was instrumental in helping me recognize what was happening to my body and me seeking help, and it continues to be a source of information, support and inspiration for me during my recovery.

Thank you, Medusa...

And thank you, Jeremy... may you find in Heaven the peace that eluded you in life.

Anonymous said...

I was shocked to read that Jeremy passed away. It's saddening that most of his life was spent fighting his ED. May he rest in peace.

Lucila said...

i'm shocked, and sad.

David said...

I had done a search on Rachel Zoe to see if she had ED & discovered Medusa today. Then I read Jeremy's story as well as other stories. I'm just in tears over the devastation of this disease. I don't have an eating disorder & am ashamed to admit my ignorance of the prevalence of this disease.
As for Jeremy & all those who have left this world too soon, I am truly grieving & hope peace has come at last.
I applaud your site as it is very informative and a healthy place to seek help/info. I pray for all suffering w/bulimia/anorexia and want to say that you are loved even though I don't know you.
Is there anything one can do in ones' own community to help?
Bless you, Dave

Medusa said...

Dave, thanks so much for your kind words and your heartfelt comments.

I will leave it to my readers, who are currently struggling with EDs, to offer specific suggestions on how one can assist in their own community. Most larger towns and cities have ED support groups, so you may want to contact one to see if they have a need for volunteers.

Again, Dave, thanks so much for taking the time to comment. Much appreciated.

~ Medusa

Anonymous said...

Thankyou for posting a story a man with anorexia.
i find allot of people are under the impression guys suffer from it. i've heard allot of 'your a guy you cant be anorexic'

i've suffered it from when i was a kid, i was always a finely built child, but my parents used to starve me and taunt me about being fat.

i've been in and out of eating disorder clinics all my life. i was admitted to one about three months ago weighing 35kg. i had been sitting at 50 for a long time but i was ill and dropped 15kg in about two weeks. i was happy about it but my body felt otherwise.

i think now i'm recovering quite alright. i'm starting to enjoy food again and i've gained 12 kg with the help of a peg tube. (i need to reach 75kg because of my height i'm 6'7")

i'm looking forward to being healthy, hair loss, heart problems, very low blood pressure, a shocking immune system and all the other complications hopefully will right themselves somewhat.

um... thanks for reading, the story and the great website.

Sidney

Tiny said...

I am very sorry about the death of Jeremy. I hope his story will warn of dire consequences for all who wants to lose weight too.

Anonymous said...

Hi. Thank you for posting Jeremy's story. It should be a wake up call in today's society where the morbid focus on weight has gone way too far... I showed Jeremy's pictures and some of his posts on YouTube to my mother. She has become obsessed with food and spends a couple of hours at the gym every day (except Sunday) after having been "fat" for many years. I am worried about her. I really hope she knows that there IS a limit when it comes to this and I hope she won't get too close to it.
Greetings from Norway

Anonymous said...

Someone told me I looked like Jeremy. Not knowing who he is / was I googled him and came across this blog. It hit me like a ton of bricks. My heart goes out to anyone who has to deal with this terrible illness. This disease needs to be investigated, researched and we need to come up with some type of cure. No one should suffer like this. I hope Jeremy is in a better place and at peace.

Anonymous said...

I've been reading a few of the blogs on this site after seeing the Aimee Moore video on Youtube and googling her to find out how she's doing. This is a very intense blog. I hate using the word bulimic to describe myself--whether not doing so is a refusal to have the disorder control my life or really a method of avoiding the truth, I'm not sure--but right now I haven't purged in two weeks. I feel a lot of empathy for people like Aimee, Isabella, and Jeremy. I wish he had pulled through. I wish something had saved him. I read the story about the woman who went through a lot at such a young age, yet took control of her own life and is still living with depression and PTSD. To the blog (owner?), thanks very much for maintaining it so diligently. I feel a lot of pain and sadness reading these stories, but I also see a lot of hope in them too.

jenny lutz said...

Im very sorry for jeremys loss and in complete shock to hear bout this all of a sudden.I fortunately got to see first hand and feel what jeremy went threw.me and him were both in treatment together in st.louis park mn.and its deff. an eveyday battle in ur mind and body that just takes you over.he'll deff.be deeply missed and seeing his story maybe people will see that this is a serious disease and you can die from it.tho its not easy and not something you can cure in one day,its a lifetime battle and motivation talking urself into something you dont wanna do for the better oddly enough.no one should want an eating disorder it possesses you and changes you if you think it makes you look good well ur wrong. I send my best regards to jeremys loved ones its a hard battle even for them.

jenny lutz said...

Im very sorry for jeremys loss and in complete shock to hear bout this all of a sudden.I fortunately got to see first hand and feel what jeremy went threw.me and him were both in treatment together in st.louis park mn.and its deff. an eveyday battle in ur mind and body that just takes you over.he'll deff.be deeply missed and seeing his story maybe people will see that this is a serious disease and you can die from it.tho its not easy and not something you can cure in one day,its a lifetime battle and motivation talking urself into something you dont wanna do for the better oddly enough.no one should want an eating disorder it possesses you and changes you if you think it makes you look good well ur wrong. I send my best regards to jeremys loved ones its a hard battle even for them.

jenny lutz said...

Im very sorry for jeremys loss and in complete shock to hear bout this all of a sudden.I fortunately got to see first hand and feel what jeremy went threw.me and him were both in treatment together in st.louis park mn.and its deff. an eveyday battle in ur mind and body that just takes you over.he'll deff.be deeply missed and seeing his story maybe people will see that this is a serious disease and you can die from it.tho its not easy and not something you can cure in one day,its a lifetime battle and motivation talking urself into something you dont wanna do for the better oddly enough.no one should want an eating disorder it possesses you and changes you if you think it makes you look good well ur wrong. I send my best regards to jeremys loved ones its a hard battle even for them.

Anonymous said...

he was so handsome and died so young ... :( f*ck anorexia..